Brazil so far has been such a roller-coaster...emotionally.
If you cant tell from my past journal entries.
When I have time to think about things, all i have is suadade (sort of nostalgia...there is not a word in english for this..but mostly it means missing people) but when I'm out doing things I am elated, and happy.
I'm having a hard time with the language, with my family, with saudade...I'm worrying a lot about school, and what people will think of me, what they will say about me that I wont understand. I'm worried that I'm not going to fall in with my host family.
But In reality, in the big picture, I know that I will be fine, and I know that all this worry and sadness is temporary, and once I speak Portuguese, and have friends I will love it here. And when the time comes for me to leave, I wont want to. But I'm all stuck in now...
The good things are that I love the culture of Brazil. The music here is so amazing, and I'm so excited to start my music school. Everyone here dances. Even the boys! what a concept!!!!!
So I'm excited to dance, and play guitar, and make great friends, and finally be able to speak Portuguese.
I know things will be ok. This is the beginning and I knew it would be hard, and I also know it will get better. And I'm not going to let myself lose sight of what I am here for, or get a mindset that will hinder my ability to enjoy my time here.
Tomorrow I'm going shopping for ingredients to make my family a meal. I think it is going to be difficult, as I cant describe the things I need, nor do I know what they have and dont have. I will just have to wing it. But I'm going to be making Guacamole, and maybe...huevos rancheros or something like that. If worse comes to worse, I'll make tacos. But I think I can find something better.
I miss you guys, and I love you very much. Thank you all for your support and everything...this is going to be one of the most life changing experiences I will have...it will be very good for me, and I will love it once normality has set in.
tcahu e Beijos
Sommer
5 comments:
Arriba and Brava! What a courageous girl. Just hang in and all will begin to fit together soon.
We all love you so much,
Mom
The girls are all cheering you on. And they are wondering if some of the Brazilian food includes some wonderful cheeses that you might recommend? You are so brave -- just keep smiling, and all anyone will talk about is your wonderful smile! Have a great first day of school!
The Power and Wonder of what you are experiencing now... how you perceive, react and deal with the challenges, newness,language etc ....will serve you well in the future. Your strength, abilities and confidence will grow and grow. I wish I could remove your concern about how kids at school will see you....they will see you as the truly remarkable human being that you are.... really!
Love you Punkin
Dad
Sounds like quite a change for you!!
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looks interesting. Have fun and learn a lot!!
We're thinking of you Sommer. It's a BIG move you've taken on--can you hear the applause coming from California?
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